I
Fearful of your sexuality
I cannot attract you
I will never know,
….but always long for,
……..your experience
[the “…..” is only there because the editor would not allow for offsetting with blank space]
II
From what I understand
Beauty deals with all types of manipulation
All types of pain
Still, I desire your adventure
III
The only hope
To kill my long solitude
Is your understanding
IV
Some people have pain associated with their being attractive
Others have pain from not being desired
Will you search your heart, and judge me attractive
Will you search your soul, and hurt no one any longer
All that needs to be said is:
Love is painful when forced, but heals when reciprocated
V
What is it, in this lonely fate?
I spy with dry eyes
(which should be drenched in sorrowful songs of mourning)
Never towing the line
toward anothers destiny
What is it?
It must be, the absence of you
