Neurotic and pacing
Asking in repetition
How do you bring about peace
Did they see?
I was talking to myself for hours
Pacing
Would they be right to say I’m crazy
For wanting to stand up and take responsibility
To say enough is enough!
Life is hard, and being kind is simple
Am I naive?
Now I’m pacing
So much reality
So much need
Stoping the war is important
Disarming the bomb
Do they want the war?
Why am I pacing?
Am I stupid to think humans were smart?
That all that mathematics translated into something functional
Enjoyable
Something you are excited to share!
This is stupid
I’m talking to myself and pacing
This does nothing
Children have been shot!
It matters!
Why with all the fucking bombs
And systems of control
But I’m stupid
A useful idiot swept into the sea of propaganda
And it drives me to talking to myself
And pacing
Always greedy to have my way
And see no more war
Or suffering
It is greedy, it is culture
I read a book a long time ago
I don’t remember what it was
The dude was talking to God at the scene of a Great War
“I don’t want this war”
So is this my nature?
Am I born to be tormented by the violent conflicts forced upon me in the reality?
Someone needs to step up and take responsibility
I don’t see anyone else doing it
But the question is how?
How do you treat others kindly
It is a personal decision, I can’t make people do it
That would bring war
And I’m pacing
This is my only life
And supposedly of no consequence
But this is my dream
Don’t drop the bombs
Don’t get the revenge kill
Be helpful
Seek help
I think I’m so damn smart huh?
I’m just foolish
I’m just scared of what I see coming
That everyone thinks could never happen
I’m pacing
Putting an end to conflict is real
What if this is really 1984
Does anyone want war
Or is it control
These thoughts are stupid
You are pacing
Ask the question
“How do we get them not to drop a bomb?”
Why are you worried about this?
You are alone in the woods
“Just because it’s not me being harmed doesn’t mean it’s not wrong. I’ve been against every war, that is my nature”
“Will you deny my being human?”
“Don’t murder”
“Don’t make legitimate excuses to kill to make it not murder; it’s murder”
Who are you the morality police?
Why should you get to tell people killing is wrong?
I’m pacing
I’m frustrated
When will peace be cool?
Are we dense?
Every smart person says war is inevitable
Doesn’t sound that smart to me
In fact, it sounds stupid
But what do I know
I’m just talking to myself
And pacing